im feeling quite low today. i think to others, especially those in cj, im ALWAYS low. oh no im not. wen i said im feeling sad, i really am. largely because i couldnt catch up with my studies. actually i caught up with the basics. but wen i do those questions in revision packages, i cant seem to do even one. my senior rishi called me an emo kid. haha. my true self is not emo at all! i just like to think alot. not about sad stuffs, but happy stuffs! plus my indifferent expressions. too bad if ure my friend. u wun get to see me laugh in school. i rmb entertaining celtic circle and they all go laughing like duno wad. of all cliques and going out in big groups, i love to hang out with them the most. they made me feel im really inside their clique. i could talk to every single one of them. i guess thats it. the reason. (HOOBASTANK! XD)

i guess theres some kind of misunderstanding today. not sure if its cleared or understood.

alot of commitment in stuffs even though exams are coming up. not sure if i will regret giving up those times that were for studies. but im losing hope : ( band n tuition. im not doing well in anything! N O T H I N G ! useless piece of unwanted junk. i got a feeling im being mocked n teased at. but if i say out ppl would think im tinking too much and im sensitive. well i noe its true. i jus feel uncomfortable and got nowhere to vent out. there seems to be so much things thats inside me, hidden.