i rmb how i used to keep up with my schedule for the day during sec 2. i rmb those 40 something chapters in geog tb that i rushed through before my exams.now cant even complete one full task out of 4 a day. the older i am the less stamina ive got. lol.

i guess i feel the same as cc. i dun want anymore friends in jc. my door is closed, so tired of getting to know people again. so tired to leave a good impression in people. i noe some of my classmates already think im weird n loner or wadever, from their facial expressions. and sometimes wad they said. so be it. spread it all around the class. cus i dun bother anymore and i hate this class. i nvr hate one class so bad before. full of hatred. wenever teachers are angered by our class and stops teaching. affecting everyone. i dun wan to be affected. a bunch of childish people. making fun of people to entertain their friends. get urselves examined in emotional intelligence test. i bet u will get below average, negative even. i duno wen i can tolerate until. wait and see.

so unlike of me to sound this way. isnt it. lol. getting anger off my chest. dun ask me to accept my class people wen they like to tease people to seek their friends' attention, or for the sake of entertaining them by making fun of people. lol. tell me if u wld still accept them if i throw shit in ur face. i look unapproachable, so be it. i always look this way. i noe im not. i WILL get bullied or be taken for granted by others if i look approachable. becus i look like an idiot. this is through my experiences. good for people who like their classes. they suck more than the heap of dust tat is accumulated in my class everydae. at least i can clear the dust in my class. now i cant even get out of the class. getting a withdrawal form is utterly stupid if u get wad i meant. anw, not all in my class are like that luh. there are some who are not though. i clearly know who are the ones.

full of emotions in wee hours of the night! but tats not crying. i wun cry easily. lol.

family isnt family wen mom's not around.no one cared about how im doing in sch. always get negative comments or comments tat wld anger me further. dun blame me for not sayhing anything, because i dun wan to hurt myself any further. after exams there will be band. dun like either. unlike last time. everythings changed.