today was an extremely unlucky day. i was in a bad mood since i stepped into the school. it was a fine morning as i boarded the 132 bus at 6.45AM, miao-ing for lifang wen i climbed up the stairs. the bus was travelling as usual, or so i thought. then at Lee Ah Mooi old aged home, i thought the bus was still moving. until lifang told me that it was producing some weird engine sounds. then i pointed to her "red light mah.there". so we waited. green light, still din move. another red light again! something is sure wrong. it didnt look like a traffic congestion. i finally believed the bus broke down when i saw n felt a swarm of people(bees -.-) buzzed past us. they were rushing for the only exit in front of the bus.

we were tapping our ezlink cards madly on that tit tit ting to get back our money. it was 7.25am then. we waited n waited for the nex 132. it came at 7.30!!!and somemore so slow to reach cj which was only like 2 stops away? ai.. sway lah. i thought got reason then wun be counted late, since so many of us were on that bus! that unreasonable discipline pe teacher din bother to care if the bus had broken down. he said if we took the bus half hour earlier. pls lar. we usually reach the school at 7.15 lar. hell. still wan take earlier, reach at 7 for wad. unreasonable. i was piping poofing steam out of my head as i listened to him. and his kind of talking, so irritating. i wish he would read this and put himself in our shoes , how wld we feel if we dun mean to be late n yet our ezlink cards were swiped away by him to record down our names in the latecoming black list. after our own pledge taking, another HOD pe came. he said to retrieve our cards at 5pm, i was like WTH!!!!!! we released at 12 todae n wan to wait till 5? TOTALLY UNREASONABLE. i suddenly felt a sudden urge to confront the teacher. but my humji-ness held me back.

i thought my anger might have already gone down for abit. but wen i went for my first lesson which was maths lecture, we were made to stand behind the lecture theater n we got to stand for like half hour. dam lar. so darn ass fucking sway. luckily i got back my card at 12. OR ELSE .. im going to drag my mom to my sch n complain with my ticket of evidence showing the bus indeed had broken down. if i got to do detention, i swear im going to complain . yes im a complain queen darn it. im one in primary sch. but i stopped since secondary becus i din get bully in school by my schoolmates anymore. i got bullied in primary sch. tats why im veri protective n defensive of myself, even now. dun blame me if i alwaes show tat dao face, becus its hard to change now.

my family ignored me most of the times while i asked them questions :( what is this. im the youngest in the family. does that mean i dun need to be respected? i tried to complain whatever i had to my mom, yet she jus keep telling me stuffs that angered me even more :( she alwaes sae im so slack and those. sec 3 she said i will be the most slacked student. does that mean i dun need any compliments? :( im sad. yet in some families, some elderlys are not being respected too. does that mean old people dun deserve the respect anymore? :( becus they are nagging n saying some stuffs that irritated people? even if thats the case oso mus try our best to fulfill their wants. they jus wan people to talk to. wenever i went to my gm's house, she always held me back and asked me if i wan to stay overnight. i noe she wans more company, ever since we moved away to another house, 4 storeys away. i sure will visit her as often as possible. becus she listens to me :) so jus need to talk to grandparents more and make them feel occupied yeah? :)