i think... i got to spend these two years in jc life, alone. this time round, no one cares for me as they all duno me. even if i tried not to isolate myself i will eventually become auto isolated everydae. i was so arse sad my appeal wasnt successful to go ny. only 8 gals in my class. ive to hide this sadness in myself for two years and keep my family in the dark. they dun seem to care whether ive made good friends or not. they oni care about results. if not they will jus sae, jus make new friends lar. im tired . SO TIRED socialising already ok. so tired.

dragonboating todae, not as fun as expected. quite tiring. alone on bus. alone with a stranger paddling. how sad is that. i wish im in ny. even if im studying everyday. at least ive ppl who know me and ppl i know there. i actually brought clothing to change or bathe after dragonboating. but due to the sadded mood that theres nothing in my handphone, i went home straight in my drenched clothes. actually the environment to study in cj is not bad. but no matter how good the environment is, old friends are still more important.

i tink of all events today chem lecture was the best. lol. i sounded so pathetic man. becus halfway through the lecture charmaine came from her piano exam then jus nice beside me the seat is empty so she sat with me! haha she practically laughs at every single thing i do -.-' its fun to have her around . i miss english tuition suddenly. lol. then jus nice we can meet up and go thomson together! haha. nice one; something i can look forward to. :) hope that the future chem lectures she can sit near me! but sounds impossible. lol. sigh.

my tuition teacher said jc life was the best years she had when making friends. i tink mine is the other way round. so utterly sadded. one friend in my class is enough!! now.. sigh . forget it. lonesome days to look forward to.. :) i bet there will be people who would say they are worse than me, dun tel me, im feeling bad enough . sigh.