Christmas season

Once again, christmas season is here again. 3rd time in this church, first time feeling uncertainties, fear of meeting new people, yet knowing that this is the right place God wants me to be in, therefore feeling joyful at the same time. 2nd time spent feeling onz to have the desire to invite friends to church and feeling excited but scared at the same time while hosting friends. 3rd time this year, praying for God to open up the hearts of people and soften their hearts to receive Him, always feeling deeply convicted that knowing Him is the best decision of my life. The desire to see transformation in friends, desire to see them n family as ur fellow family in Christ as well. Invited a few friends, they didnt reply. And realised that ignoring made me feel worse than rejecting. Always trying to submit my feelings n emotions to God, seeking Him for assurance n comfort in this area during this season. 

Nevertheless feeling thankful for realising God's love for me n growing in His love. He who never fails will always be there to guide us, only when we are willing to let Him lord over our lives and allow Him to hold the pen to every area of our lives:) praise be to God for the gift of salvation so freely given to us through Jesus Christ, not by our works but the grace of God n our faith in Him will we be saved.