things have not been going smoothly for me this week. sigh. i thought i could get out of achievers. yet im still inside. because the term 1 results are combined with the term 2's one. and my combine humans is still F9 becos of my 16/100 in term 1. i got a B4 in term 2 but i still couldnt pull out even from the F9, let alone a pass. sigh.my english is back to C5, instead of a B4 this term. my L1R5 overall is 21 =( that means im still in achievers. i wanted to get out! now im stuck with it the whole year. till the o levels end, i am not out. sigh.

and i got some sore thing in my cheeks(in my mouth) that i duno whether if its ulcer. couldnt even talk properly and its always itchy i got to bite that thing sometimes, or pull and pull my cheeks till my face is unbalanced.

my life isnt going on too well, even there are problems surfacing in friendships. luckily theres always my family, but they duno whats happening to me in school or myself, at least theres someone i could talk to now. =/ who is 16/7 free. 8hours for sleeping yea. thanks.

i wanted to get home and sleep straight after dinner. i do this quite often already, although i know its bad for health and i would get fat easily, i thought, since im already so fat, fatter also nvm wad. like people will care if im thinner.. i know my low self esteem system is stimulating that bores and irritates many of my friends, but i already tried my best not to say them out, its best to keep them to myself if ure thinking this way. sigh.

i will change for the better! both studies and person!