i felt a change of my own attitude recently. im lazy to think nowadays. the maths ct made me think this way . during the test i jus give up on those questions without thinking hard. i wun usually give up to questions, esp in exams. sigh . even during practice im jus unwilling to think of ways to solve the problem . i jus give up and wait for the answer. so tired. now had to do corrections. thought hard abit more n get the answer. wads my problem. idiot.

im oso unwilling to use my free time in the evening to go out with friends. i just thought i want to rest early or go home n do some work. unlike last year. i tink they feel the same way too. some things are just gonna fall apart relative to time. lol. wad isit like, to start a day with nothing to look forward to at the end of the day, or after school? lifeless. eh. but ive been like tis in sec 1 n 2 too. my days were jus sch home sch home. haha. wonder why i feel tis way now. maybe im getting rebellious, or i nid more things to fill in my life. im unwilling to walk that extra mile to meet up with ppl. so i will just laze around at home.

maybe its good in such a way tat i can go home earlier to study -.- and have dinner cooked by mom wenever shes off early from work. tonite is maggie mee -.- zomggg so many homework. i jus dun wish to do it. now that theres band everyday. gota keep up with schwork. im falling behind in complex numbers n vectors. o god.seriously. missing or not listening in lectures are no kid.