i wonder what happened to me these few days. todae i came back from school and reached home around 7plus, i bathed at 8 and was so engrossed in thinking about stuffs that i poured soap on my hair when i already done washing my hair -.- i hope im not THAT stress -.-' i actually forgot how to manage my stress when i cant count my stress. ive too many stuffs on my hand im struggling to finish them all. i jus hope i get through this weekend with work to be done and cca which is a full day. 8.30 to 4pm. i din regret joining though. i like it. haha. :)

i cant remember when is the time i laughed so hard that i actually had tears in my eyes. i tink most of the time in sec 3 i laughed because of cc's jokes. haaha. i missed the liveliness. jumpy.

i can still count the number of times i tried to force back my tears but failed.for the whole secondary sch life, i din shed a tear, not a single one, in lower sec. i still possess the innocence then i guess. ss test and gm in h. i saw anna's blog and notice something about 'willing to die for my friends'. i was thinking, if my family people could live for extra 10 or 20years, im willing to die if theres such thing. let all the harm befall on me and not my family. suffering in silence is much better to see people suffer. sigh im getting all emooooed . lol.

i cant imagine i have to study in my class for another 1plus years. without those friends whom i always stick to in the past. whom always lend me listening ear. i wan to meeet up. but i cant :( i mus have self discipline. promise to meet up if i got no cca on friday!i wan to eat hk cafe. :O :P

looking on the bright side of course, i still have lifang to sit with me in the bus every morning and chatted merrily as if we are still primary sch or sec1 kids. haha i still feel that innocence. perhaps i noe her since young -.- tat explains the stupidity we had in p sch. lol.always talking about the stupid past that we went through. i wish the bus 132 would always go slower so we can relax in the bus. todae we were mugging for our econs test in the bus and i felt like i din study anything and we were at the sch gate alrdy -.- same class for 6 years. same school for 12 years. :D i oso din know why things changed when we were in sec 3. lol. perhaps its fate. so i could get to know other people better. and even better.

less conflicts as theres less interaction in school. which is a good thing. for me. lol.

its fun to look forward after school and thats when my craziness starts as i see my friends like charmaine n lf. hahahaa. oni two -.- yup oni two whom i can let my hair down (oh gona cut hair soon)