never post for a long time due to daliy nomad rehearsals. too tired. i had a performance last night and i think it turned out badly. when a lot of people walked past the ram, mostly the teenage boys were all laughing so loudly and i could not concentrate. and they laughed even louder.WTF!
only some people that were involved in nomad that walked past were supporting me. the rest...NO! they were all 'jeering' at me and i felt very sad. i suddenly dun feel like performing tonight. what shd i do? the guest of honour and my parents will be walking. what if my parents saw people were laughing at me? what shd i do?
i can only recognised a person that teased me. STUPID ROTTEN JESPER FROM 2/4! 2/4 BOYS ARE IDIOTS! i hate them to the core. behind me there were also people walking and laughing at me but i had no idea what these boys looked like as i could not turn my head. i already tried my best. i lost all my confidence. thinking that people will appreciate it. MY FOOT!
i was so angry that when my auntie walked past and waved at me i did not even notice. when they talked and laughed loudly as they walked past, i shouted my lines at them and stared at them(diao them). some were like pointing at me when they noticed that. STUPID IDIOTS!!! SOME EVEN LEFT THEIR LUGGAGES ON THE RAM AND WALKED AWAY!TAMADE! i really really dun feel like doing this anymore. and i felt lonely. whenever i went in the holding room, i had nowhere to sit and nobody to talk but to lie down and calm down. MY FOOT! whenever i tried to think of something else, i always remembered people laughing and jeering me. ='(...
what should i do? lonely and sad
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